Hmm, Physically I would have to say I am about a 6. Part of this is because of the GBS and its limits on my mobility. I have been working on more endurance but I still get tired real fast. I do try to go on a 20-30 min walk each night it isn't raining to help unwind.
Spiritually-I am about an 8 or so. I have a strong belief and faith that God is in control-even when I don't understand why he allows somethings or doesn't seem to answer when asked why things have happened the way they do. I know he has my best interest at heart I just have to trust him to let me know when the time is right.
Psychological-mental health-I think I still hover about 5-6. I was constantly told by my mother that I was useless and couldn't do anything right. Even when both of my parents became ill with cancer (not at the same time) she didn't want me to take care of them because she never felt that nursing was the proper field for me-she didn't trust my abilities. Because nursing was the only time I felt like I could accomplish anything i nearly lost my family/husband because I was spending so much time at work instead of with them. After about two years of counsuling with my husband, I have begun to realize that God don't make no junk. He made me just the way I am for a specific reason and I shouldn't listen to anyone (like my mother) who think I am anything other than what I am.
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You are an amazing woman. Sounds to me that you have pushed through some struggles and overcome. When you say that you just have to trust God to let you know when the time is right that's "letting go" and I find a very difficult thing to do. You rock!
ReplyDeleteThanks, I still struggle with self-esteem issues and when things go wrong around here I automatically feel like it is my fault because I can't work and help out financially.
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